The scent of bleach is burned with in my skin, leaving it to shrivel together with the harsh cold air our late winter brought, “I need more….I need something ells..” I softly tell myself but have no idea what I’m looking for. “I don’t miss you…I don’t miss you…I don’t miss you” I softly tell my self, my voice barely above whisper. But I do. The only times I see you again are in my dreams, but those are horrifying nightmares. “did I tell you…I dreamed about your death..?” I ask. Though, my words enter the deaf ears of the imagined version of you. “it looked just like my sister funeral, but I think I already told you…” I simply continued, my eyes still glued to a high ceiling that seems dark in the dim light. “I tried to say something, but broke down in tears…” I cut myself of with a small sarcastic laugh, “and nearly jumped into your coffin, your coffin looked an awful lot like hers” I simply continued, knowing that I would react like that in real life. In the back of my head I still hear his words, but his voice long forgotten. ‘you don’t need do say something when I die, and I want to be buried in the woods’. A frown forms itself above my eyes. “but I wanted to say something…”. In my mind I see you smile again, and hug me as we stay silent for a moment. “will you promise me…not to die before me, I don’t think I’ll be able to bear it…” I ask a bit too childish in my own opinion, but In my memory you smiled back, and than it all fades to black. At this point there are tears rolling down my face. Your pale body may not be buried, but it feels like you have died, and at this point I conclude that I was right. I’m not able to bear it.
[i]Pooch[/i]
Please don’t make me
Go alone,
Please don’t leave me
Like this
Why did you leave
With out a word
I still cry for you
For all that it’s worth
Please don’t disappear
Out of my life
I still need you the most
Of all
‘cause I’ll get lost
[i]Pooch[/i]
I had a dream last night
Not able to utter it in words
I had a nightmare so dark
Not able to…
The coffin was made
Out of light wood
Just like hers
Before the crowd I stood
Trying to…
I can’t, I can’t…
I keep telling myself
But when I look over
At a coffin,
Just like hers
I see you
[i]Pooch[/i]
I regret the fact that I never took any pictures with you. I regret the fact that we grew appear so suddenly, after all we’ve been trough. I know I should be telling you, that I miss you, that I’m worried. No one has any good news for me, making me dwell in misery. The dreams I’ve had, I can’t describe. But I’ll let you know, I don’t want to say good bye.
Every bodies worried, please talk. I am so worried, please don’t leave me in the dark. I still love you the most of all, regardless of what I say or do, since the truth is, I still need you. I still cry for you, If you really want to know. I still pray to the moon, but she’s a no show.
Please don’t let is fall to shatters, that special thing we’ve had,
Dear Craig, there’s no other way to say it.
I want you back
[i]Pooch[/i]
[b]My last words for you[/b]
My fair weather friend,
I'd like to call you…
But you were not.
No, you where the one that would stick with me
Through the bitter and the worse,
Like a pact we didn't sign
But promised in blood.
When times got tough,
Things got complicated
At least we had the comfort of knowing
That in the end of the day
Once phone call could make it okay.
We've had bumps in the road,
We've had our difficulties,
Sour times and bitter rhymes
But we stuck together.
When I took the path,
Leading me away from home,
You were there, meeting me up
Half way through my tears
With me you used to share all your fears
You showed my so much as a young child
Like and older brother I looked up to you
Being there for me when I did or didn't feel blue
Our ways have parted once before
But you've found your love
And I my lust.
Just when we were getting close again
Trying to look past the damage we've done
I knew trouble was there, know you long enough to see
But the true shock that left me cold as stone
When I was the one who wasn't suppose to know
Never had you told me, Still I don't understand
Months after that seemed like the nightmare that would never end
I cried for you hoping things could be restored
To what they once were, as much as I hate to say
I still miss you up until today.
Days passed by, every drunken cry session of mine
Was over that one single lie, Still I whine
All the news I got was far from good
Never really soothing my bitter mind
Of what I feared would unwind
Never once had you returned my despaired calls
Thrown my cellphone against the walls.
I screamed and kicked, fought my fight
But beating that what isn't there
Doesn't seem quite as fair
The friend I once had
The friend that once meant the world to me
Your face is something I might never see
I still remember your scent, your voice your looks
The way you stroked my hair, calmed my cries
Gone so suddenly...with out telling why.
[i]Pooch[/i]